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End of last year my enthusiasm was on a high for Triathlon. Yet it is like always… I am a man. And I met a lady. Not some lady. THE lady I met. I met a lady and knew: “that’s her”. And told myself: “You are stupid if you let her go!”. Well I was smart: I did not let her go, but married her 🙂
Then again: it really was (and is) a life changing experience. Except for triathlon this was baaad. Like really bad. Not because she stopped me to workout and train, but because we needed time together and most other things lost their importance drastically. Couple that with a drastic change in business life and you get an idea on how the priority of sports dropped for me slowly.
Yet I trained all the time, but not as much.
Then race season approached and I was happy to race. For that I put my Neo on for my first open water test swim and… mind-boggling catastrophe. I trained swimming a lot beforehand, improved technique drastically (or so I thought), sometimes swimming 5 times a week (despite my other changes). But when I was open water swimming, I could not even swim freestyle for 200m in a row. How should I do 1,500m+ ? Even worse: considering my training, this was a real shock to me. And so,… I slowly dropped training completely…
The times I trained, I trained together with my wife, sorts of being “her personal trainer”. And I loved it. She wasn’t swimming for like 10 years. But with me she went swimming almost regularly. Not because she wanted to do me a favor, but instead I realized she really enjoyed it – I was able to make it enjoyable for her. You can barely imagine the fun, joy and laughing along the way.
So I slowly dropped all races and did where I felt good and where there was and is a lot to do: business life and private life.
Unfortunately (or luckily?) the Triathlon-fever was still burning. And so I also started Triathlon-projects in my Marketing consultancy. As a matter of fact I started to support several race organizers and… suddenly also an athlete. Patrick Lange his name. Let me tell you: this was and is great fun! Doing my work in a field I love most. When I first had contact with the option to support him,… by then I did a lot of research. As a result it turned out, that Patrick has huge potential. I compared numbers of successful athletes in the past to top athletes of that time. Then I did the same with Patrick and compared his numbers (races, race times, age, weight, history,…) with top athletes of today. As a matter of fact: that guy has it. And so… we work together and a friendship grew. Yet Patrick would not be Patrick, if I he would not push others. And so the time came, that I suddenly did my first run again…
Where that leads to? I don’t want to tell – this time just do. but I will write those steps down, like I did in the past
For some days I am back to Hilpoltstein. Due too that I switched my bike workouts to spinning, since I no longer have a bike around here. Yet…
It all started yesterday evening – preparing some Pasta for a friend and me:
It tasted good and in the end I also had an Aperol sour, went back to the Pension, where I sleep and… had a hard time to wake up at 10:00 am, which is way too late for me. Don’t ask me why – seems I needed the sleep.
This time training was a horror to me: It was extremely difficult to raise my pulse above 120 bpm and even more beyond 130 bpm. Sweat on my shoulders, my muscles burning, I take some water, see my pulse watch and while still spinning – 105 bpm. OMG, increase speed, stand up, everything hurts, my stomach turns and… 110 bpm, where 120-134 bpm is my target range.
No matter how much I did, it was almost impossible to get my pulse above 120 bpm and once I sat down on the bike (still pedalling) my pulse dropped like a brick below 110 bpm.
By times it felt as if I am close to faint – still I was determined to finish this one nonetheless. I know for sure it was not due to the instructor, maybe the Aperol sour? Maybe just not feeling ok? No clue but I just felt like thrown into the corner, unable to get up.
Now some Latte Macchiato’s later I am feeling better and think about going for a run. Yet I had nothing to eat so far (afternoon). Yet I also don’t feel like getting something to eat.
This is a weird day. Somehow, somehow I believe it is also an effect of Coach Ralf’s training, which was explicitly aimed at making me have a greater power output at lower pulse rates.
This gonna be interesting – let’s see, if I go for a run – I might shoot a current picture of Challenge Roth transition zone #1 and maybe also of Rothsee Triathlon festival transition zone.
Things happen… After the MTB tour 3 days ago I had a pain in my lower back. A pain, which didn’t leave me except… when I went swimming on Wednesday. Right into the pool and the pain was suddenly gone. Right after swimming it returned. By now I can’t sit straight anymore.
Even worse I have a running session for today. Let’s see what my doctor tells me.
Yet I will do the running, even if it means to crawl the distance. 🙂
This annoys the hell out of me.
It’s no longer that cold, still we had it snowing today. So I chose my Mountain bike for my planned bike ride. I decided to find my own Mountain bike trails and so set off to discover some. I was “lucky”..
What I didn’t count on: part of those trails were quite difficult – over some slippery wooden roots, always at risk to fall downhill into the water. Yet I got through safely. Still some of the harder parts made me realize how much work cross courses are (not the trail you see here, this one was more like a paved road than a trail). I realized how much the harder parts shook my body and how much work it was especially in my arms and back.
Later on it happened: I got lost! No kidding! I wanted to slowly return, the night approached and I wanted back along the river. Along a trail, which suddenly ended in a huge field with extremely difficult terrain. No city light could be seen, no houses, nothing. So I pushed on, only to realize that I was in a huge curve around the field with no way out.
On I went in a bee line through the field and felt my back and arms being exhausted and shaken by the difficult terrain. In the end I got home but… running was not an option. In fact I am happy if I can walk straight again soon since my back is just that: exhausted, no power left.
A 2 hour ride but it was cool and enjoyable. Off to my next endeavors.
Yesterday I was out – drinking some, good dinner and so on. So today I didn’t really have the drive to do anything. Yet somehow I decided I have to do something.
What did I do?
I went out for a planned bike ride into the cold. Yet somehow auntie Kate (my tt bike) didn’t like that at all. And so… at the point furthest away from home out in nowhere… I went on my bike at some traffic lights and… auntie Kate’s chain ripped.
Way to tell me: “It is too cold for me out here.” *nods* I understand.
Lucky me no car tried to crash into me and people around were helpful. Of course I am ok, yet it became an issue: how do I get home? Lucky me some postal service package driver picked me up and drove me home.
Now I lack 40 more minutes of my training for today. What will I do? Now off to swimming and then a run.
It’s cold out here.
Today was a ride on my bike scheduled. Well it’s cold outside, but as we all know: nothing stops a TriAddict. So I prepared… Don’t be fooled by the look in my eyes: it’s not despair but dedication, sheer dedication…
So off we go for a ride on auntie Kate – 1:30 hours away from dusk. A smooth start and overall today’s goal is base endurance. Right uphill at the start and I feel pretty warm. But then comes the even part – straight forward and… the wind. A cold wind from the front and from the side cutting like scissors over the skin of my face. My feet becoming cold until… until I can’t feel my toes anymore.
Onward, forward through the cold. After half the ride I realize that I even forgot my water bottle – this might become ugly… Onward through the cold – a good ride, were it not for my feet and especially my toes, which I didn’t feel at all (yes I had warm socks and neoprene bike shoe cover – figure those saved me from the worst).
Yet I remember the song I listened to, when I stopped feeling my toes (how fitting the song’s text… And please ignore the model in the vid…).
Yes I arrived at home, safely but the surprise was yet to come:
At once I warmed up and my legs and feet hurt due to the sudden warmth all around me. My legs almost feeling as if on flames. And then, then my toes warmed up. Imagine a thousand needles piercing your toes at once for 10 minutes and you feel each single needle simultaneously. That’s about how I felt.
I smiled, knowing it was good.
Did I enjoy? Yes!
Will I do again? You bet!
Time is flying right now. It is passing by.
I am afraid I am slowly gaining weight – yet I am not really sure since I dare not visit my scale… To make it worse, I maybe smoke by times too.
Overall I am unsure. Then again maybe it is the huge amount of rest I have from sports. Too much free time, too much energy. Too much work.
Private and business life works pretty well right now. Triathlon does not. Were it not for the smoking I would call it the perfect rest.
What do I do sportwise?
- It seems I cancel the Ironman distance for next year. Just because it is too early for my body. Especially the doctor’s advice of health issues in 2012 made me decide that way. A long talk with Coach Ralf confirmed that it is a wise decision.
- Instead I go for several olympic distance races and other races. Plan is four olympic distances, bike part in relay at Challenge Roth and a Marathon in autumn 2012.
- For now I do base endurance on bike and swimming technique. Yet I slacked with training amount. That totals for about 10-15 hours training a week.
- Also I restarted on my diet. Actually I am sure gaining weight stopped today and just turns 180° to weight loss.
- Smoking IS an issue I gotta change today. Then again I told myself the same yesterday and the day before yesterday and…
Bottom line: I slacked a lot and I am threatened to fall back into old behaviour patterns. Tomorrow is a base endurance unit of 2-4 hours (depends on myself when on the track – if I do 4 hours) and swimming.
I am unable to predict my next few weeks. I hope I do get back fully on track. Then again that relaxed attitude might be needed right now.
Several people recommended that doctor to me, so I went there for my appointment. I expected a doctor and Triathlete. I got the most straightforward and blunt advises possible.
So I took my time to swallow on those.
Anyway – one after the other:
- During interview the doctor already expected some kind of burnout.
- During diagnosis he found:
– my upper thigh muscle being inflamed
– tissue already stiff
– lack of stretching of my legs overall
– joints and movement being perfectly fine
- Then came the really blunt part about training, over-training, burn-out,… That part lasted about 45 minutes (the other part only like 15 minutes).
Truth be told: I am aware he is right. Also this kind of… blunt speech proves to me that it was all about health – my health. Well – he came through.
What is happening now?
- I will take my recovery time.
- I have to take a slightly different approach.
- I need to find a way to not push my body too extreme. I still believe that this aspect of pushing is something good overall, but I need to learn where I have to stop in favor of my own health.
There might be some more changes in future, but all in due time. For now: recovery… and enjoying that I don’t feel pain, while sitting still.
There it is – motivation never left me, but…
Ok one by one:
- I saw a doctor for my pain. Result does not sound good. I have to see another doctor. Basically my upper thigh muscle is far beyond its capabilities. We now have to check if there are any consequences to my hip and other leg due to that. And what it means for sports coupled with my still existing weight. Apart from that we have to find out the exact status of that muscle. *ouch*
- I am taking medication for my thyroid for some time. This ain’t good for my sports goal and there is a possibility I do not need it anymore! I will learn about that one soon.
- Due to 1. and 2. I have to cancel my performance test. I would have loved that one but it does not make any sense.
- Had some Email exchange with a very special Lady, who is into high-end Triathlon. The news from the doctor made me feel down, yet she told me: “Hey sounds to me like too much too soon. I nearly don’t know any sports person, who did not experience it.” That one cheered me up a lot. Might be that all remarks about “burnout” are true. I did not expect that kind of help and support from her. Thank you SB! I gotta check with Coach Ralf once I can call him.
- Got my running shoes like I told :).
- Going to care a little bit about my ego the next few weeks.
- Please press your thumbs that this sports doctor I gonna see does not cancel my sports due to health reasons…
Yarrr ok here my new set of running shoes. I will be checking my old 3 pairs to see, which set still works and dispose of the others.
So we shall see.
I am stunned.
Semi-frustrated I posted my issues in motivation 3 hours ago. Yet I went up, got my stuff and started again to finish what I started: running for today. Simply since I am not willing to give up that easily.
- I had my iPhone with me with spinning music (a trick – I admit).
- I warmed up.
- I started running.
- I powered on (in quite a decent speed I believe).
- I stopped once more after 2 km this time. I could not go on.
So I turned around and had my walk home… I switched from flight mode to normal mode on my iPhone and… my iPhone went crazy… Message by Vivian, Scott and Adena (I had already read Christi’s message). All that while walking home, frustrated I had to stop once more. Pitch black night… reading comments on my blog…
Thanks to you all and some more advice. By now I know what I will do:
- First thing is first: I will see a sports doctor for the searing pain in my thigh(s). Every time I am running I now have a hard muscle in my thigh and an insane pain due to it afterwards. The simple remark by someone: “I would hate running if I felt the pain rising, while knowing it will be unbearable once home.” Good call – we gotta get rid of that.
- “Sane training” – I overdid the training. I did not mean to, yet I did the past few weeks. I am going for a true sports performance analysis soon
- “Cold” – I am quite sure I am ill. No symptoms but overall feeling weak. I am quite sure my body fights a cold by now.
- “Slacking” – I slacked with my diet. Due to that I feel overall… bad. So I know I did not perform to the best of my possibilities and therefore afraid to put it to a test.
- “Burnout” – I am unsure in that department. Either because I am unwilling to admit or because it simply does not apply. Yet I am unable to figure it out alone. Gotta get me some support on that one.
- “Running shoes” – I have 3 pairs of shoes now, but now I do realize I need new ones. Maybe I waited too long. Bought 2 new pairs already – due to arrive tomorrow.
- “Ego” – wanting it too much. Admitting that one does hurt.
Looking into each issues, I always find my ego somewhere down there:
- Running despite the pain in my thigh. Most sane people would have seen a doctor 4 months ago. I have this pain for 5 months already. Why didn’t I see a doctor? I considered it part of the deal having that pain. Running into pain is a lot about ego.
- Sane training – I pushed myself to the limit each time in one regard or the other. Just because I want to get forward. That’s ego.
- Slacking – no secret I enjoyed aspects of my past lifestyle. Slacking meant to my ego: you can because you are good (no not really but you get the idea).
- Burnout – physically apparently not since my pulse and anything else is reacting normal again. Mentally this might be true, but I still consider it unlikely this season. I just fail to enjoy the results. My results in running, swimming,… the hype from a month ago is gone and I do blame the pain in my thigh(s) for the most part. Basically I call myself being unable to live to my own expectations. Damn that’s ego too. (Funnily I could maybe achieve my goals and get even further if only I calmed down. But this is not my personality and I would probably lack in another department).
- I did not buy new running shoes. Simply because I am so bad in running. As a matter of fact to my ego it goes like this: I did not run enough (hence my being bad in running). So I do not need new running shoes… Seriously that is ego.. *ouch*
So after all one could say: drop ego and do your stuff. Actually some people who know me, tell me to do exactly that. Unfortunately ego is what made me start it all. Ego is what keeps me going. And my fascination of my own progress, of living my dream, the changes to my body,… is what makes me wonder, which makes me want to go on and take a peek around the next corner – curious about the changes to come. Ego asks me one question each day: How far can you get?
And my answer always is the same: Very far.
All I have to do is to define the word: very. To define that word for myself.
As a result of today I will follow my plan on my next steps as outlined above, also I just sent my Email to order that sports performance analysis (I am afraid what that test might tell).
So the journey goes on. For now.